i dont know how to put it,

but im feeling weird this few days..

and only today, then i realised that.

been having moodswings once a while.

scolding people for nothing.

donavan received a hell loads of them on tuesday night.

and well, i dont know.

RARRs.

i seriously dont like holidays.

i prefer to go to school.

sigh. cause during holiday period,

i canot go out.

what's the point of holiday in that case?

sigh. MOODSWINGs.

im in need of money.

it's like.. september is so many people's birthday.

choir never return me my money.

and stuffs. so many stuffs.

sigh. got 12's people's birthday in september.

and the most important two are my brother and sister.

okays, mine is important too.

but i can always buy a brithday present for myself any other day.

and my birthday is the last of all siblings.

so, i guess it doesnt really matter that much.

i never get a celebration all for myself before.

it was always celebrated on my sister's day.

plus, i dont eat cakes with cream.

so i guess, they dont really care much about it.

i know i've childish thoughts.

but aint birthday celebrations with your family supposed to be fun?

i know, my friends does celebrate it for me,

but it's always different when it's with family, doesnt it?

OKAY, FINE.

i guess im just jealous.

but my mum's gonna celebrate it on my sister's birthday this year anyway.

her's on the sunday,

mine's on tuesday,

and we only meet on sunday.

sigh.. what's the point of saying all this?

i dont know what to buy for my brother.

i dont know.

maybe something for him and his stead?

hums. i'll see about that.

my sister nehs.

im buying drumsticks.

and maybe if i have extra money,

i want to buy her a new wallet.

and a new pencil box.

sigh.

there so many things i need to buy for her.

but all my money is like not with me.

all lend lend lend. sigh.

mine? i dont know.

by the time i buy all their presents ....

sigh. maybe i'll just buy a rose for myself.

cause.. it's cheap what.

or maybe a catus.

i've got like so many small small ones at home.

they are so cute. =D

sigh. forget it, what was i thinking?

my birthday is not important.

i've got to tackle my siblings presents first.

RARRs.

just hope that the forbidden city performance will clear my unhappiness.

sigh. i just want my dardar.

it's going examination period again.

i'll be studying and studying.

sigh. i like that say, dont know if i'll do it at all.

but i'll try to study, even though i know im gonna retain.

if i retain, i'll get to stay in this school for an extra year.

it's not really as bad as it seems.

but it's just that, it's hard to get along with the rest.

im only close to 2normal a/t people.

unless i drop untill na/t.....

LOLs.

im starting to think a little too far.

there's a few subjects which i really want to A1 for.

they are CHINESE, DESIGN AND TECHNOLOGY, ENGLISH.

A2, i want LITERATURE, HISTORY, SOCIAL STUDIES.

lol. my mathematics and sciences are not on my list. XD

cause the rest have a higher chance of getting aces. =DD

i really hope that my DESIGN AND TECHNOLOGY will get A1 nehs.

my only hope. T.T

okays. enough of studies.

i want to do my best for choir and drama.

i want to train.

i want to get GOLD.

sigh. there's so many things i want.

they never come, though.

sobbs.

anyways, i just realised that i've forgotten to blogg on some stuffs.

i went to dardar's primary school yesterday.

his school was so cute in comparison with mine.

hahas.

ohh. by the way, you all did that survey already right?

the one on your ambition and stuffs..

aaron had one that was childcare superviser.

and one of mine is childcare assistant.

doesnt that make aaron my boss???

gosh.

whatever.

i cant think of anymore stuffs le.

I WANT MY DARDAR BADLY.

T.T